Struggle tym from april till july and still struggling.

I have not updated this blog from past many months, just because was very busy with many things...
on 9th or 10th April went to mumbai, after leaving my job. My last working day was 31st march 2011.
But the gap between 1st april till the date i went to mumbai.... that time was very horrible for me.. because my mom sis n her kids already been to mumbai one month 26 of march 2011 n i was all alone.. had no work to do no one near me... being alone was so a mental torture for me... was feeling so suffocation from inside.. and i found d best answer in a mosque... I try to sit thr for long time, n it brought a great relax to my mind n heart.

Went to Mumbai:
With the hopes that my elder brother n me will work together to stand our own business... but it was very challenging for us.
We have to set up our office at bhayander in mumbai... for which renovation has to b done... And I spend my time there to renovate all with the labours and giving instructions to them... It took around 2 months for me to do several things there apart from office renovation.
At the same time I was worried for my surgery because I have to go Delhi and get my surgery complete... as doctors planted a Tissue Expander under my skin on shoulder.. Doctor has to do saline water fillings every week.. so that it can expand my skin.
I had word with Aquib on phone that I wanna come Delhi but can't bring mom along with me as she is not able to walk properly, and any of my sibling also can't come with me as they are into their own problems... and I also don't have guts to ask them to come along with me for my surgery... At last Aquib said come to Delhi I will be there with you in hospital..

Went to Delhi 19th may 2011:
I have no work to do here... Aquib planned with me already that when I will come to Delhi we will go to Mussourie for a trip with Aquib's mom dad and his younger brother. Been to Mussouri for four days and all the expenses were incurred by Aquib here as I was short of money this time and it was decided that I will give it back to him later.

My thought regarding Career(02/03/2011)

I am very much confused about what all is going with me from past year. First of all an incident changed the whole life,
1. Was in hospital from 10 February till 21 February again and don't know for how many times more I have to get admit .  Got mental harassment over there.
2. Now when I re-joined my office many bumps are coming ahead for my career path... And I am, and I have to struggle for it a lot. As today 2nd date of March in 2011,  Yesterday the decision I took was wrong or right I don't know but I know somehow or somewhere I will make those decision right. I have resigned from my Office on 1st March.
3. Some family issues because of which all my day even if I am at work, I have to think about the remedies.

The organization where I already have invested my almost 4 years, I took the step to leave it, Just because I made a plan for my family to stay together in one city one home. It was my initiative so I have to look for it, I know many consequences will come many problems, difficulties I will face, but only apart from ALLAH I have faith on my elder brother to be with me and solve these problems.
                  I was typing resignation e-mail and was thinking before sending it to the concern person rather I should send it or not, Because I knew If I will send it I will have no other option to look back. Discussed it with my brother that I have format written in front of me, but still thinking what will happen If I will send it, had discussions for hours with him and my other family members, as I believe family is the only source from where I can get the better suggestion and solution for all the problems i have. And at last sent the resignation.

Now when I have resigned from my Office, I am looking to climb up the ladder of success. I have to serve notice period of 30 calendar days,So that they may find a suitable substitute for me.
And after it I will continue with Bhai in the business at Mumbai. Though it is a good option, Insted I would say a very good option, still I am upset to leave the place, I know these types of situations usually comes, but I am going to face it for the first time. Just keepin my fingers crossed wishing to ALLAH, and hoping for the best INSHALLAH.